HOMESICK Edition

"Edition? Are you magazine or something?"
Well, It's my random translation from Indonesian word "edisi kangen rumah"..
I know it's not a usual word even in my mother language, but I just want to write it like that..
Is it a problem for you?!

then why didn't I just write "homesick" for the title..? Well, if it is a problem for you, that IS YOUR problem.. not mine..
Woa! No, I'm not angry..
It's just my style of speaking..
I'm not an English native so please bear with some misses in grammar or dictions..
then why didn't I just write in my mother language?
well, here's my answer, then why are you so freakishly annoying? :p

Then, am I homesick right now..? I think that's a rhetorical question..
I've been in Japan for almost half a year, and rarely take a contact my mother..
I phoned her about two or three weeks a go.. I phoned her for about an hour.. but, I still miss her..
I miss the way she hugs me, the way she caress my hair..
and I miss her cooking..
I always say that there's no food that I specially like or hate.. but I should say that it's just for my mom cooking..
I don't always eat in restaurant and I can't cook well..
I don't think my physical condition's getting worse but, If I continued to eat instant food, it will get worse and worse.. And I just can't realized it because my Mom always takes care about it..
Sometimes I feel that I don't have a right to be an adult.. If I'll be, I'll be just a useless adult..
Wait, I don't even think to be an adult at all!!
Just realized about how negative I am now since I used to much "I don't..", "I can't.." blah blah blah..

Well, lately I can't hold my tears (in a little too dramatic way) when I hear this song..
A song about a mother.. about how big her love to you is.. about how patiently she will be when hearing your cry.. AHHH!!!
I MISS MY MOM!!
I just want to say about it while sharing this song so you can hear it too.. ;-)

Ahh, maybe I'll phone her tomorrow.. or maybe not..
Can't be satisfied just by hearing her voice or see her face through video..
LOVE YOU MOM!!