Because f*** the tree, that's why

That's what I thought before..
But now I'm truly feeling guilty for this..
Should've checked more thoroughly before printing my thesis, so I wouldn't have to waste papers this much.. Sonya-chan as perspective..
I'm so sorry nature..

Ann, Karen, Mary, Ellie or Popuri?

Playing Harvest Moon BTN again 3 days straight, and I still can't decide who to marry! When I played it before I couldn't decide between Ann or Karen, but then I married Ann, because I love her tomboy style more and Karen's drinking habit.. But then I realized, to win this Karen's side might be challenging.. And there's Mary who's very cute with her glasses, and Ellie with her kind heart and smile.. I hated Popuri because her hair is pink.. But I realized she's a little bit tsundere (everybody says she childish though), and I be kinda like her now.. Aaaaa!! I want to marry all of them!!

Ann, tomboy but secretly has a girlish side (e.g: she's very good cook)

Karen, love to drink but very good listener, and she's cool! XD

Mary, shy, love to read, and very cute because she's wearing glasses!! XD moeruuuuuu

Ellie, very kind and she has a little brother.. XD moeeee

Popuri, childish but I rather say she's tsundere.. lol

In their wedding gown

I want to live in Harvest Moon world!! XD

Memories are such a great things!!

Especially your childhood memories..
My parents' friends when we lived in Sibolga, North Sumatera suddenly came and started to talk about, yeah, things you usually talks in a reunion.. what you're doing now, what's everybody who isn't in the reunion is doing, things you used to do back then.. not much..
Okay.. things you used to back then.. they bring back memories..
I was always smiling when they're talking about things in Sibolga.. but actually I'm trying so hard not to shed my tears, because I realized how I missed the place I spent my childhood.. and to make it worse, the memories had blurred.. I can't picture it well.. the look, the color of the sky, the smell, the sound of the sea.. It's kinda frustrating.. and a couple of dreams about Sibolga that I had in my sleeps before..
God.. I need to go back there someday.. No, I will go back there someday..

Should I be panic?

Yes, should I be panic?
The thing is, today's December 2nd, and if I want to graduate in February, I have to have my thesis read by thesis-examiners before 13th!!
And, I can't finish my thesis without guidance from my professor!!
And I'll get the guidance in 4th, and should do revisions after that, and write the abstract!!
Which mean, I only have less than two weeks!!
Do you know what makes it's worse?
The professors always have a meeting to decide about examiners etc in Wednesday. So, I think that means at the latest I have to submit my thesis in Tuesday..
Which means, I have a week left!!
I'm not really sure about this, so I think I'll confirm it tomorrow..

I started to think that I can't make it in time.. And that's why I should be panic..

And the other problem is, there was this test, Japanese Language Proficiency Test, yesterday, and I was taking the highest level, the hardest one..
What happen in a hard, difficult test? I have to work my brain harder..
And what happen after that?
My brain needs to rest.. I always be exhausted after a test, particularly the difficult one, but who don't?

But, well, maybe I'll make it just barely in time.. I still have 4 seasons left of How I Met Your Mother to watch before my thesis-guidance..
I'll watch it while taking rest..
But I think I'll grab some dinner first..

「あの子は今きっと、自分の無力さに気づいて、悔しがって泣いている。でも、それはポイントじゃない。悔しがって泣き終わって、その無力の状態から脱出方法を見つかり、自分だけでなく、周りの生き物にも役立つの人間になるためにしなきゃならないことをするのがポイントである」
なんか常套句、、